I messed up again

Close your eyes and think of me
Just for a second or two
Remember for a moment
A memory or two

Let's go back to old times
And how we used to be
When there was no you and her
Only you and me

Go back to a time
When there were no tears to cry
Both of us were happy
And these eyes of mine were dry

The pain it gets so bad
I cry myself to sleep some nights
I soak my pillow in my tears
And turn out the lights

I can't handle this guilt
It burns from deep within
The pain from yesterdays
Coming back again

Happy memories of us
That make it hurt to think of you
All I ever wanted
Was just to be with you

Maybe we weren't perfect
And maybe we were blind
But now I finally realize
What I left behind

Mistakes have been made
And promises long overdue
Now my smiles turn to tears
Whenever I think of you

I ran from truth
So scared to be alone
I don't know what to do
I can't make it on my own

It's all put on me
And I broke my own heart
We can't be together
But I don't want to be apart

Oh and one last thing
I'm sorry for what I did to you
I know that I screwed up
And I regret it too

And now my once seen smile
Is replaced through all my pain
I'm stuck missing you
Because I messed up again

And it hurts now to know
That things won't be how they were back then
But I would give almost anything
To be with you again...