Torrent of Pain

Suddenly. it all comes forth. all the pain. misunderstanding. grief. loneliness. depression. anger. it all comes. pouring from my eyes like a torrent of rain water. is this what they call a break down? i want it to end as soon as it begins. i don't want to be me any longer. i wanted to be someone else who
/////didn't//////
no /////doesn't///
have to deal with this kind of pain.
if i close my eyes. i think i shall forever be gone. gone from myself. from everyone. from you. from me. there's a scream ripping at my throat. yearning too come alive. fly and bounce off the walls. I'm not giving up. not now. not ever. I shall survive. I'm not ready to die yet....