One Girl's Life Story

Hurt:
Ive been hurt so many times by a lot of guys. The problems, situations, excuses, lies and heartache. They never seem to leave my heart or mind.

Secrets:
There area a lot of things i have never told anybody. A lot of personal things. Problems with boyfriends, being cheated on and knowing that deep inside it would never last.

Relationships:
A relationship based on sex and lies. Love for me and lust for him. With different sides to every story and different thoughts, feelings, and actions.
Love and Mistakes:

Falling in love but not for the first time. Not realizing that every word is just a lonesome lie. Making mistakes, bad judgment with bad results. Crying, yelling, worries then no more mistake, no bad judgment and finally no bad result.
Loneliness:

Being alone... Feeling nothing but my pain. While depression is taking over my lonely life.
Pain:

Pain as i cry. As i cut open these old scars i mad so long ago. Feeling my inner pain all over again. It was always there but now it's stronger than it ever was before
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Cutting:
I've gone back to my old ways. Cutting and relieving my pain. Staring at the scars. Crying at the things i do.

Death:
I don't want to die believe me i don't, cutting myself is only a way to get rid of the pain i feel inside. A pain that will always be there.

Addiction:
Can this thing i do be addicting? I have a friend that says yes, hopefully it will never become an addiction for me.

Life:
It's a wonderful thing that will always be apart of me and the future
Until death comes.....

Shame:
Fool me once shame on you. Fool me twice shame on me. Shame on you for making me believe that you actually loved me, and shame on me for believing those deceiving lies...

~Madison Leigh~ March 23rd 2005