Is all hope lost?

My world is collapsing,
My mind is elapsing,
what beauty i possessed,
now is fading away,
like a candle it is dimming,
My head wont stop spinning,
My life was just beginning and I threw it all away.
now i sit and wonder,
am i gonna end up like my mother,
the very same mother who,
gave her life away,
Now only a shell of a woman,
She sits alone with the bottle,
the vary same bottle that drove me away,
Sometimes late at night,
I stair into the stars,
I feel so alone,
How can i be a mom,
What do i have to offer,
Whats left to give,
When you have nothing,
Thats just the way it is,
It\'s almost like all hope is slipping further and further away,
Or maybe this asylum of a mind,
Is at its final decay,
I feel so lost and ugly.
Whats left to say,
So on this night so cloudy,
I dropped to my knees valiantly,
i looked up hoping to see,
maybe a sign of hope,
but no one seems to be out there,
And i feel so lonely,
as i trudge through this life so knowing,
nothing is going to get better,
Unless i make a change