I Won't Let Go

Seemingly over the top
Sometimes I feel so out of place
Like I don't belong
Like I am a sort of disgrace

Then sometimes I don't care
If you don't like me, don't
You can degrade me all you want
But I can't change, I won't

Then there are times I hurt so much
All I can do is cry
About everything that has happened to me
Sometimes I wish I'd die

But I have made it this far
I can't turn back now
I'll pick myself up off the ground
And wipe the sweat from my brow

I could just end it all
It's an easy way out, I suppose
But I'm still on this path called life
And I want to see where it goes

I couldn't leave my family
I surely couldn't leave my friends
If I am to die, it will be God's will
Not when I want it to end.

No one said this life was easy
I know best how hard it can be
Abuse, acts, hurtful words
Have all been directed at me

But there is nothing I can do
I can't change the past
I'm going to keep on going
I'll be strong until the last

I won't sit and blame myself
No use in lingering on regret
I have life, faith, and love
That's as good as it gets.