Darkness of Pain

The Darkness Of Pain
Darkness surrounds me
All I see is death
Pools of blood around me
I am afraid…
Afraid of what I’m doing
Afraid of who I am
Afraid of how I feel
Afraid of what you’ll say
All I feel is fear…
You can see it in my eyes
I cry out silently
Not knowing that tears are falling
I gasp in pain, but
I keep cutting in vain
I need your help…
But I refuse to ask you
I’ve experienced horror
Horrors you’ll never know
I have to punish myself
For reasons I’ll never show…
Reasons you will never know.