I Just Wish To Be Happy

Depressed again
Don’t see the point
In doing what I don’t want to
If it doesn’t give me joy
Or at least a bit of comfort
Then why should I bother?

I’ve changed since that night
When I tried to end it all
Before I went to school
And thought that I’ll need it in the end
But it doesn’t give me any joy
And that’s really what I need
Not to be smart
So I can get a good job
What I need in life
Is to finally be happy
And school doesn’t provide that
It only makes things worse

I don’t care if I don’t get a job
I don’t care if I end up broke
I don’t care if I find myself on the streets
So why go to school?
I see no point at all

I do care about being happy
I do care about finding peace of mind
I do care about finding something
That will keep my mind off the pain
And school doesn’t bring this
It only brings more of what I don’t want

It brings me stress
It brings me enemies
It brings me panic attacks
Nothing good comes from it
Except for a cheap education
That will soon rot away

I need something now
That will keep me busy enough
But it won’t stress me out
It will keep me happy
For the majority of time

I’ll try to make it through this year
Just a few weeks left now
I can make it to the end
If I just keep trying
But I’m running out of energy
Running out of room in my mind
To store this worthless junk
They just keep feeding me