Depression..and Over dose

When I lay in bed and stare out the window
I realize I'm full of nothingness
I can feel the sadness, hopelessness still deep inside my soul
When my ex shows up it's like all the anger and stored emotions just leak out
He knows how to get a rise outta me
I live my life in the shadows
Blocking everyone possible out
I feel so helpless
So lonely
So empty
Everything inside is just...Black
Black as black as the dark night sky
There's no light at the end of the tunnel for me
I don't deserve anything good
I can't possibly mean anything
I'm just a body full of pure sadness
If I take enough of these pills
They can take it all away
I won't be living in the shadows
I won't feel the nothingness inside
I'll be at rest
I'll have no pain
Down goes the first 5 pills
Wait 10 minutes
4 more that should do it
No i need to go faster
6 more pills
There we go
Im starting to feel different
5 more for the pain
4 more for my mother
3 more for everything Nate put my through
2 for my suffering
1..the last pill left
That's for Davey
I'll be with him once again
Best Friends Forever we said
Not even death will can break us apart
I'm slipping
It's getting cold and quiet
Daniel and Jess take care of eachother
I'm watching over you
Love you even though I'm gone