I have to admit it, I'm terrified of what's next.
This change, this transition, is unlike anything I've ever been through.
I'm just not sure if I'm ready to step off the precipice of independence and take responsibility over myself.
This world is a huge, scary place, and though I know that there are sunny days, that doesn't change the fact that it's also full of shadowy, unknown things. Can I protect myself?
Will I know what to do, where to go, who to trust?
How can I even know if I'll be able to take care of myself, let alone confront the thousand nameless dangers lurking around the next corner?
What if I make some bad friends,
Do some drugs,
End up a father?
Can I deal with that?
I don't think so.
But at the same time, I don't know if, when the time comes, I will choose the straight and narrow.
I know my weaknesses well, and I know where I am likely to fail.
I just don't how I will be able to hold on to the things I have always taken as truth when I cut loose and cast free, drifting alone in a sea of gray choices.
