My final vow

Sometimes i get so lonely
when people are so near
and i wish i could just smile
and get rid of all the tears

it scares me deep inside
thinking i cant get through life alone
but i cant explain my problem
because even to me its unknown

i sit at night in my bed
when a tear starts to fall
then the rest follow
and before i know it its a pool

i grab the knife
and rest it against my arm
is this all worth it again
is it all worth the harm?

Ive done it all before
i can do it all again
I\\\'m scared of being alone
I\\\'m scared of going insane

is this life over for me
not knowing whats really wrong
no-one will ever know
this is my life lasted too long

its all over for me
no-one even tried
to help me when it all stared
they didn\\\'t notice i cried inside

so family and friends
I\\\'m saying sorry to you all now
i love you to bits
thats my final vow