Ashamed

Ashamed to see my picture, photographs on walls
Disintegrate my hopes, constant trips and falls
Unable to slove, this problem deep in my heart
Doomed from the beginning, hurt from the start

Ashamed to see reflection that stares into my eyes
I cannot see this person whom I so despise
I can't believe you love me, why on earth would you
You saved me, but be honest, why do you love me too

Ashamed to cry these tears for my dying family
Cuts strip away my body for the whole wide world to see
Disgraced useless and broken, hurt and alone
Cannot feel this anymore, don't want to be alone

Ashamed to eat the food, shame runs through my soul
I don't want to look like this, I want to be whole
Writing all these poems, unrequited in my feelings
Lying to myself if I said my scars were healing

Ashamed to want to die, when others have it worse
Don't you see how much I'm trying to remove this curse
I'm working hard to stop, but not concious with my thoughts
Glaring in horror, at the calories I have bought

Ashamed to drink the alcohol, again and again
Another bad resort to escape all of my pain
I love you more than anything, you've made me want to try
I love you once again, But these tears I still do cry