*Life sucks when you lose someone you really liked even loved...you thought they cared for you for who you was not for what you did or wanted to do...
I thought that I loved you, you were everything to me...my life,my future everything...
Then that day you life with out even telling me why...I come home crying having my mom ask me whats wrong and I tell her nothing was wrong.
Crying for a week because of you, was it worth it, were you really worth all those tears? No because a real man wouldn't want you to cry.
You sit in your room with nothing going on. No sounds, no noises, no nothing.
You ask your self did he really love me or did he use me? you will never find out the real answer...
You sit there for hours thinking I should just kill my self...is he really worth killing my self over? No but hes not in my life and I didn't feel like I'm going to ever love someone like I loved him...
You go to school the next day telling your best friend about what you thought about last night. Telling her not to tell no1, so she didn't...you go home that night after hanging out with her and you sit there waiting for everyone in your house to go to sleep so you could leave...
Everyone went to sleep, you left the house.
At school the next day your best friend worries about you, thinking your hurt.
When school got over that day she calls you no one answered, she called back still no answer...she starts to worry...
The next day you still wasn't at school, so your best friend goes home sick because shes scared you really did hurt your self over him...you call her mom answers.
You ask her why I haven't been at school.
She tells you, you drop the phone crying you never thought I would do something crazy like that.
She told you I left the house one night late and they found my in the feilds dead because I shot myself.
You go to school to tell him what Ive done, he didn't believe you so he goes home that night and calls my mom.
She didn't want to tell him because we all wasn't sure what he would do, so she told him...he was in shock.
They all went to school the next day crying because no one knew I would do something crazy like that.
He asks her why...Why I did something like that...She said because she loved you and she thought it was for the best because she thought no one loved her anymore...
He goes to her grave and tells her how he feels, now shes wishing that she never did that...she misses the hugs and kisses and hearing his heart beat...*
