I see you looking my way,
Trying to tell me,
Something I know will hurt,
I really want to make your day,
Because I know I'm free,
And nothing would be better,
Than to treat me like dirt,
I can already guess,
What your going to say,
And who you want me to be,
But I cant do it,
That's why I write every letter,
With my heart growing thoughtless,
Now I know you want to pay,
Me some trash I don't,
And never want to hear,
But I know I can't keep you at bay,
And I know I wont,
Be able to stop,
This endless fear,
Of not belonging,
I just got to try hold on,
Try my hardest to stay,
Because I'm makin it to the top,
But I can sense your near,
The pain rushes back,
From everything you do,
Everything becomes unclear,
You hunt in a pack,
Causing the end nearer,
Bringing it one step,
One step closer to the end,
Taking me to the drop,
I'm falling,
Your wishes you send,
And then everything comes to a stop,
It was all a dream,
But not normal,
I let out a scream,
I've fallen asleep into calm,
For my life is the dream,
But for all the wrong reasons,
When I sleep,
I run out of steam,
Wake up with a sweaty palm,
It doesn't worry about seasons,
Do I sleep forever?,
Or do I dare?,
To keep awake,
And live this nightmare.
