Quiet Solitude

I don't understand why
But I know what it's like
I'm sorry no one knew
I wish I knew you better

It hit me so close to heart
Wound me around so fast my head spun
I put my head down and prayed for you
Up in Heaven, you met God when the angels carried you away from your misery

I'm crying because I've seen the edge before
When at the last minute, I'm deciding what to do
To end this hell or to walk on through it without flinching
Like the pain's not there

But you actually took the plunge
Something had to be wrong, I know now
We're all too late to keep you here
But as long as you won't wander away from us, we can hold you in our hearts
To comfort you

Some of these words sound awkward
Because I'm not sure what to say or how to say it
None of us really understand
None of us really understood
All we feel is this heavy weight keeping us grounded
Letting us realize how much one person means to so many others

Every one of us has felt a loss
And almost all of us have revived from this
Maybe we will never heal from this hemorrhage that bleeds so profusely
This will never be become a scar, just a memory
Because you are not just a memory

In this quiet solitude, we feel trapped
We notice the thin line beteen everyone
And we stand ALONE

I want to be alone right now
I need to break down
Everyone does

*This is dedicated to a beautiful friend of mine named Ashley. She comitted suicide on April 27,2005 and she has taught many people around her so much.

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