Torn

I'm so confused and I feel so worn.
Between two people I am torn.
Both of them are very kind,
and both frequently run through my mind.
Which one do I choose and pursue?
Either way I feel that I might lose.

One runs in my mind more than the other
but what's it all for?
I haven't known him as long and
I don't think his feelings are quite as strong.
But still sometimes I wonder.
Was it to me that his eyes wandered?
Has he ever pondered about us?
Maybe not, maybe it's just what I want.
We mess around a lot and
I don't want to be a hound but
I do like for him to be around.

The other person I have known longer
and I'm sure his feelings for me are stronger.
We're able to be together more and
talk for longer but still I ponder.
Why is it the one who obviously cares less
that I more often want to impress?

Why does he run through my mind more,
when I know his feelings compared
to mine are poor?
Why does the other one not bring
so much allure when I know together
we could be more?

Both strike my heart and when I'm down
they both can pick me up and make me soar.
When either touches me I long
to feel their touch more.
All these questions run through my head
and not one of them will be said.
So I guess I'll have to ponder some more
and wait and see what happens.

You see, the answer to the question
of who to choose is what I yearn.
But until that answer comes
I shall continue to be torn.