With a headache twirling in my head,
And nothing seeming to go right,
Failing tests and projects for school,
Being sick and too weak to even fight.
The broken family breaks even more,
And the friends lie and backstab still,
The broken heart continues to break,
And to do anything, I have lost all will.
Cut my bangs too short this time,
Running out of my black eyeliner,
Going to need more coffee soon,
Even though this shit is just minor.
Collapse on my bed in the night time,
Wanting sleep to invade me once again,
But ending up lying there for hours,
So I can remember; to soak up the pain.
The dirty looks are about my secrets,
The ones that everyone now knows,
No point in hiding from the world now,
Since people stare wherever I go.
Fight each day with a smile of plastic,
To help those who cannot put one on,
For them who I know are putting one on,
So I can stop them from being gone.
Losing weight, yay, good for me!
Don't give in to the temptation of eating,
Make a tea or a coffee instead then,
I guess it's better if I just eat nothing.
It's 6:15 in the morning here now,
And I have to go to school today,
It'll be another day in hell for me,
I know it, cos it's always that way.
So I sit here, hurts to move my head,
The headache pounding at my brain,
Can't swallow cos it hurts my throat,
And then inside there's even more pain.
Writing poetry, thought as my only skill,
To lazy to do my damn English homework,
I will probably fail that anyways, always do,
I should do it, but I'm a moronic jerk.
Stand in front of the mirror and I cry,
Why do I look like complete shit?
My sister is stunning, brother's not bad,
It's only me that's come out imperfect.
I'm a misfit; I don't belong here now,
I don't want to be here anymore,
Of course I will be, but I wish not,
This pain is getting so hard to ignore.
I sit here, write and listen to music,
Smile when someone walks in here,
Nothing is wrong, nothing ever is,
I swear I didn't shed a single tear.
And they believe, so easily as that,
And walk away, believing that I'm fine,
And the river pours out once again,
Yep, I'm fine...perfectly, completely fine...
