I Ruined It All

Things seemed to be perfect,
Then something happened,
It changed how I feel,
I don't know what it was.

Things are colder and darker now,
They're just not the same,
I miss how they were,
How they should be.

I know its my fault,
It hurts so bad,
To know that i caused you pain,
And made you cry.

I wanna crawl up in a hole,
The deepest darkest one i can find,
I wanna die in that hole,
And leave the world behind.

I look in the mirror,
And spit in disgust,
Look at what I've become,
A nothing, a nobody, a failure.

My father was right,
I am a mistake,
He spent so much time telling me,
I just didn't wanna listen.

I wonder how long it would take,
To bleed to death from a cut,
I think I'll try and find out,
I leave a letter with a kiss.

I don't want any sorrow or pity,
Just throw me in a hole,
Or throw in some flames,
I don't care cause I'm gone.

I hope your life is happier,
Without me around to bother,
I never meant to hurt,
It seems like thats all i can do.

I'm gonna go now,
I'll leave the letter in sight,
You wont have to ask how,
Cause I'm gonna do it right.

I'm gonna go down the middle,
No more fun and games,
These wont be little,
I'm gonna shred the veins.

So goodbye love,
I'm gonna miss you,
Please don't miss me,
I love you