Once again, my life is spiraling downward forevermore...I feel as though something is weighting me down until I lose all my energy...it feels as if the love he gave is now gone...and that I can never get it back...I sit here thinking if it was my fault...of course it was, it always is...but What did I do?..what didn't I do?..maybe there's nothing wrong and I'm overreacting...but I can't get that one thought out of my head...that she is still there...in his mind n pops up suddenly...i know I've crossed his mind...but she has too..so what should I do...I'm so confused i cant tell right from wrong...this is how i feel...right now, i feel that he doesn't love...at all...but when I'm near him, every mood changes to the happiest it can be...then he walks away...doubts then surround my mind and I can't escape...it drives me crazy...sorrow follows the tears that drop from my eyes...inside i feel the pain because it's always there...waiting to burst open...I'm trying to forget about it...but it comes right back...all I can do now is pray...that everything will get better...and that me and him can make it through...if only he knew my hopes were really high...so that he can never crush it...
