Her

Every time you mention her name inside my heart begins to break.
My blood begins to boil, my whole body starts to shake.
I don't know why I feel this way,
You and her happened a long time ago and you're past that.
I get these images of you and her doing the things we do,
You telling her all those romantic things you tell me.
I don't want to be this way with one of your friends,
But I can't help the way I am.
I guess I'm scared of losing you,
If that makes any sense at all.
I don't like this jealousy I feel over her,
I know you love me and shes only a friend,
But I've been hurt in the past, and I'm scared of being alone again.
I've fallen for you deeply,
Now I'm scared this will scare you and you'll pull away from me.
I hope you can forgive me and love me anyway,
I need to be honest with you once and for all,
No longer can I keep these thoughts bottled up inside,
I'm scared, terrified, petrified she'll come in the way of us and she'll fall for you,
The way I have, deep and hard.
But the thing that scares me most is you falling for her and forgetting that I ever existed...

*i didn't know what topic it was under...but its all true and not something I'm proud of :-(*