Cry

It hurts inside
To think that I am going to tear a heart
Into two pieces
And just far apart

The same thing happened to me
But I just was not happy
Or as I though I would be
So why torture myself

I need to tell him the truth
He does know everything else
He might not be happy either
But it will have to do

I hope he understands
If he really liked me then
He would support my decision
And not get all mad at me

So today? Or wait I can not
But I have to
I can not live like this anymore
Just through the pain of knowing what I’m doing

But how do I change the subject
From a nice thing
To hey I can not go out with you anymore
That is the toughest thing to do!

Wow I just want to die
Or curl into a ball
And cry my eyes out
Until everything is over

So apparently not today
He is being nice
And I think I like him more
Or am I just trying to think that?

So tomorrow
Before my show
But wait
He did not even call

Does he know
I hope not
Because I want to tell him myself
I can do this

So for sure Monday
Wow I do not want to hurt him
We are so close in friends
I hope we do not lose that

He is not that mad
Just that I didn’t tell him Saturday
Or call him
When I though about that

So that was not too hard
Just that I did cry
And I tried really hard to hold it back
But it all came out

It’s so weird to think
I am single again
But I think it’s the best
For me to just think alone

It’s sad to know
That he was my first for a lot of things
Though he might not know that
But now we won’t be together again

After one time it was all ruined
Though I did give a second chance
It just isn’t the same then
I mean a lot already happened

But I guess I just have to get over it
I was hurt the same way too
By the same person
But I know we will still live on

We will still talk
And be able to tell him things
Without feeling weird
And him telling everyone else