The night you died

A silent night
for a silent death
To manny pills,
was pain ever felt?

A note upon
your pillow laid.
signed in blood,
crimson letters did say,

"Don't cry for me,
I will be fine.
A better life
I've left to find.

I love you, pleas forgive me,
I never meant to make you cry.
Others have controlled my life,
Now I can control when I die.

I know you cared
but you were the only one.
I couldn't even stop myself
and now the deed is done.

I'm dying now
as I write you this.
I wish I could give
you one last kiss.

The chariot
is drawing near.
Leaving this earth
I'm starting to fear.

What is out there?
Where will I go?
What will happen?
Does anyone know?

My sarrow dissapears
as my last good-bye I say.
I'll be gone within the hour,
night is turning into day."

The letter stopped
and I read it again.
If I wanted to join you,
would it be a sin?

If I died to find
a better life.
would it be a true end
to all this strife?