My Dear Friend

My dear friend
I'm writing to you
To let you know I'm still alive
And that I love you

It's been rough
I cannot deny
All this hurt and pain
Feeling fake under all these lies

Many times
I have drawn out my knife
I have drawn it lightly
Over my wrists

But before I can push down
I think of you
Everything that you said
Oh how I love you

Remember that night
When you found out all my fears
What I did to release the pain
I had been hiding it for years

As you looked in my eyes
You didn't have to say anymore
You made me feel guilty
Because of the disappointment I saw

You held me tight that night
I never wanted to let go
But I had to go home
And face more pain and sorrow

You see most of my troubles
They all came from home
I hated my family
They made me feel so alone

But all that I just mentioned
Is irrelevant to what I wanted to say
I just wanted to remind you that that night
You saved my life

I never really knew my worth
Until you looked in my eyes
I really did want to kill myself
I was sick of all the lies

But anyway I'll skip to the point
My friend as I write to you
I'm all in tears I feel so hurt
But I just wanted to say thank you

Thank you for all that you've done
Even though you might not think you've done much
You won't believe how many times
You have saved my life

Because you see my friend
You have changed my life
You give me something to hope for
You keep me away from that knife

I love you alot
You are my special friend
I know I can always rely on you
Time with you I want to spend

So thank you for everything
Please never change
Because without you here
I turn all insane

As I close this letter
With a hug and a kiss
I want you to know
That its you I will miss

I'm sorry
But it was the only way
My spirits now free
And with you it will stay

Please tell me friends
That I love them as well
Without them in my life
Sooner I would of fell

And tell my family
That they can now erase me from their lives
I swear my mother
Had purposely left out all those knives

And to you my dear my friend
I'll wait here in heaven for you
But until then I leave you with just 3 words
The words I Love You!

*For Brenton