The sad realization...

That little girl,
With the knive...
is full of sadness,
and full of strife...

She lost her father-
When she was two...
She has had sadness
And not known what to do

She has lost her best friend,
she cuts ro release pain,
but all of the anger and sadness...
always would remain.

Now she sits in a corner,
slicing once, slicing twice...
not knowing what to do...
with her miserable life.

She finally decides,
that shes given up!
she draws the blade,
and whimpers like a lost pup...

The blood gushes out...
daddie, cant you see?
that that little girl,
Daddy, she is me...

I need you here with me
but Ill see you soon!
I should see you
right around noon

Mommy, I didnt mean to leave you
but all the death is too much
Ive gone to live with daddy
where theres happiness and such

If only he didnt die
I would be with you
I would be eating strawberries
with chocolate on them too

Mommy, Im kind of scared...
Its getting cold and black!
I dont want to leave you!
Please let me come back!

I realise my mistake
Now its completely black.
Tears roll down my cheeks
As I realise- No coming back.

Im reaching for you
But you are not there...
Again, I am lonely...
And I ask myself where?

Where did I go wrong?
The depression?
Yes, that was it,
and here is my confession.

Im a coward.
I whine and complain.
Now theres no turning back
I have to pay for my mistakes.

I destroyed myself!
I cried for nothing!
Im worthless!
I really am something...

Its all my fault...
If I didnt go there,
Id be with my momm
And not be asking: where?

I made it come
apon myself
and I am now
leaving my shell

Goodbye cruel world
I wont be back...
Now its over...
Its all black

Please dont blame me
for feeling pain
that will make it worse
And Ill go insane

Remember the girl in the news?
Cant you see?
That dead miserable girl...
That was me.