Self-hatred

Can't take the lies
Can't fight the tears
Realizing how I've fukced up
Through all these hurtful years

Trying to forgive
Unable to forget
Can't blame other people though
'Cus it's MY life that's turned to s*hit

I just want to go back
To the innocent girl I was
Maybe I deserve this pain
I hear that's what karma does

I hate the way I am
And everything I do
Looking in the mirror
At this girl I never knew

I don't know who I am
Or what I'm capable of being
Everytime I think about it
I feel like kicking and screaming

Will someone kill me already?
I always want to die
Anticipating for the day
That I breathe my last sigh