Tonight was a bad night,

Tonight was a bad night,
All i want is to die,
Nothing can make this right,
I can only sit and cry.

Everyday I'm fading a little farther away,
I'm standing on the edge about to fall,
And I'm nowhere near OK,
I'm not strong enough alone to cope with it all.

I know your problems are worse than mine,
I should be there for you,
But how can i when I'm far from fine?
I know you're hurting but baby i need your help too.

This was never about attention,
Two years i never let you in,
I needed an intervention,
I could no longer hide behind my grin.

One day i went to far,
Habit turned to addiction,
The cuts began to scar,
So i gave up the lies and fiction.

I opened up my tattered soul,
Let you see the girl behind the empty eyes,
I need some help to fill the vast and empty hole.
I can't go back to convincing lies.

But now that I'm in dire need,
You can't recognize me dying,
I can't help myself except when i bleed,
I'm not strong enough on my own anymore so it's on you I'm relying.

Tonight was a bad night,
Once again drew the blade across my wrist,
I tried so hard but i's an urge i can't fight,
Tonight i felt the cool steel i had sorely missed.

I know inside you're in pain,
And i want to help you through,
But I'm slowly drowning in the rain,
And there's nothing i can do.

I wish it didn't hurt me just to feel,
When they ask honestly how am i i want to say OK,
But this grief is painstakingly real,
And I've lost the will to live today.

Please can't somebody help me,
I'm headed for a tragic fate,
I'm in desperate need of a friend to help me see,
I'm not a lost cause, that it's not too late.