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I slam the drawer shut
and stomp out the door

too mad to stop and think
the gun's in my hand

and my fate is with it
who knew all the cards were on the table

walking down the long hall
I start to think

of all the people I knew
and all the people I loved

the gun in my hand
seems to be thinking for me

It says so what they don't care
no one cares except for me

I turn the knob to the bathroom door
and enter it without any fear

i turn on every faucet
and make the radio play

then pulling the gun to my head
I cock it and don't pause to hesitate

I squeeze the trigger
then drop to the floor

my soul departs my body
and looks down upon the scene

I linger near the ceiling
waiting to be found

my mother walks in
and screams

it is all i can do not to turn away
floating down to her

i wrap my arms around her
she can feel me there

I know she can cause she just whispered my name

I can not reply for i don't have time
daddy walks in and sighs in pain

I look once more upon the scene
oh look here a poor little girl

too forgotten by the world
to even be heard

her cry for help was oh so feeble
and her pain seemed oh so little

I don't regret my choice
but think hopefully the world will

then i hear my name calling from above
i glance once more at my broken body

and then at my broken soul
I love you mommy goodbye daddy

I'll see you soon
and I'll say hi to grandpa for you

then like that i disappear into a light that shines from above

it is bright and warm
and there sits God on his golden throne

welcome dear daughter to eternity
where your pains become mine

where you have all the time
a place to sit back and relax

a time to enjoy
a time when your only worries

are what to do or where to go
this is eternity and your place is waiting

I smile at him
then I glance all around

the sight that befalls me
is more than I can take

mommy daddy let me say this
you'll like it up here

for I do
and when you join me

I can fix this awful mess
until then I'll be waiting

in this heaven
too good for anyone to see

I love you mommy
goodbye daddy

*this poem means a LOT to me so please comment and vote*