Ruth

Before I realize that you’re not actually mine
I’ll imagine, imagine there’s even a choice.

Now Ive got a few things I would like to admit,
About when I first met you and the thoughts I had then.

Like how my eyes found you when I entered the room,
And about your voice that swept me off my feet.

My fond memory of you saying “see you again”
The embarrassment when I realized I replied “I hope so”

Time went by, I saw you once, twice out of school life,
Both times the beautiful lady, once in black once in white.

But this beauty was not mine to have, never mind keep,
Others came before, coincidence working against me it seemed.

I had little faith in myself, for I could no longer see,
That somewhere, somehow, there would be a chance for us to be.

-But as I saw you up there dancing to the beat,
I was pretending, pretending that you were dancing just for me.

-When the curtains were drawn and the crowd gathered in,
I remember, remember you were the second to hug me then

-With your warm body pressed to mine, your eyes alive,
I realized, realized that there is so much about you I liked

-Felt your hair when I stole the thorn halo from your head,
Thinking, I’m thinking about what I should’ve said.

-Perhaps that the show didn’t begin until you stepped in,
How it didn’t end,- even after I heard the last person sing.