There was a blame placed on me
By those I loved so dear
Wanting to deceive what others might see
Upon my shoulders they put their fear
Every day since I have faced that shame
Abandoned completely to save their face
Pushing away those from which it came
Carrying with me their own disgrace
Abandoned by my family and friends
Faced with life with no where to turn
Under the pressure my life starts to bend
With a pain inside that constantly burns
Wrecking my life, Torturing my soul
Breaking everything when I try to care
I dive deeper into my protective hole
Trying to hide what I can’t bare
From under that rock I force myself out
Must take back control of my days
Reliving those pains is not what life’s about
Struggling to find my way
I am scared to find what has become of me
Scared of what I might discover there
What might my eyes see?
Could I find I might just care?
* this poem is about my struggle to cope with being blamed for my bro's drinking addiction by my family
