"I hate you" is what I say
but I don't not really
I can't it just hurts too much to say
"I love you"
actually it hurts to say anything at all
I wish i could make believe you were dead
but your sitting right there
your playing with your stupid hair
flirting with the cutest guy
"not that I care" I might murmur
but jealousy and rage
has hit the charts
Occasionally you glance up
and you try to force a smile
as I duck away
pretending not to stare
but it is too obvious and you look away
and the routine continues
by the end of class
we have both had enough
and it is hard to tell
who got up first
We shot out of chairs and right at the door
but neither of us
can reach the door first
for a head on colision
is about to take place
our stuff goes flying
the rest of the class laughs
you drop the floor without a word
and pick up your stuff
I put on an act of relief
then follow your lead
unsure what to do or if I should speak
is it time to be honest
I reach for my pencil bag
but her hand beats me to it
you hand it to me and
in the process
you slip me a note
it didn't say much
just we need to talk
so that is why i'm here three hours after school
waiting for you to show up
still no sign yet "not that i care"
I say to myself
but without much luck
I continue to wait
but you never show up
so here I am at midnight writing a poem tonight
to say goodbye to our friendship
once and for all
*this happened today well sorta i did bump into her and she was flirting with the CUTEST guy but no note was exchanged and no supply bag returned she just said goodbye but this is way nicer to say"
