Divorce

Alone in the darkness
I lie still
And when no one can see
My tears start to spill.

It's been almost ten years
Yet still that black stain,
The one that causes me
All this pain,

Leaves its smudge
On the page of my life,
My parent's divorce
Which cuts like a knife.

Why did it happen?
Why was it me
That was thrown into this world of abnormality?

Shared weekends
And counseling,
The arguments
That made my ears sting.

Things never change
It's still the same
I walk through each day
And hide my pain.

I want things to go back
To the way they once were
Before my dad
Had ever met Her.

I want to laugh
And smile again
Because perhaps if I do
My hurting will end.

© Emily Sanctuary, 2007