Somewhere

Somewhere I need to find
What I’ve left way so far behind
I need to know
Instead of being so slow
I want to understand
What’s happened so much in my dark past
I need to leave
I need to be
What everyone knows me as.

Sometimes my thoughts escape me
Burning their ways through eternity
Hurting all those it touches
Leaving the marks I bear as scars
Reminders of the times when I didn’t know
Who would hold my hand like they do now
I want sometimes to change the past
Tear it up, light a match
And set the whole damn thing on fire
So that I don’t have to relive the whole damn horror
And burn again.

Somewhere I need to find
My moods that are skulking so far behind
I need to let it all out
Shout
My pain to the heavens and cry
And cry
What will not happen has already happened and set me free
So that I am here to help you believe
That I am not the one for you
I am not the one for you
So why don’t you understand
That my moods can’t do nothing else but hurt
So stay away
And let me play
My little game that won’t break my heart.