When the entire world has died
and all these tears that I have cried
dry up and go away...
maybe it’ll wash away my pain.
my sorrow is endless
in it is the mess
that they made with my life
and with the knife
I hold in my hand
darkness is in the mind
never thought to be left behind
and yet it is our weakness in all the same
we will always take all the blame
still even in death there is life
for that’s what we are
death in life and life in death
we will be forever held in this
two shadows in the dim night sky
held in forever
anger drawn in by pain
and pain drawn out by blood
forever streaming
warm and rich
forever red in pain and agony
yet so delightful
for tears have never come
nor will they ever
for they have dried
and until they are shed once again
the cried ones will be
forever meaningless in the darkness
the darkness binds us
while we cry
we have no reason
to not let life pass us by
but we walk on
meaningless
moving on
just like the sun
that burns our backs
while we toil
without the life we were given
yet suicide seems so easy
a way out of the lost
but the lost is where I belong
all pain is mine
and will be forevermore
for the depths of hell in my mind
are never deep enough
and will only go deeper
into the greatest depths of my mind
we’re unbreakable and yet so fragile
two unstable shadows in the lost forever
but have you figured out
that maybe all is needed is a shout
that will release you maybe
so that you can be
a soul in the darkness
or in the light
have you yet figured out the answer to our plight
is it something different
something unseen
or is it my friends that walk beside me
my thoughts remain in darkness
and still I release
like the blood
that is yearning to be released
and the pain I want to feel
as the knife glides across my skin
begging for more
and so much that has been done
and so much left to do
all we do is move onward
and look back in remembrance
look back at the scars
the past is forever real
unchangeable pieces of time
look back and see the change
I look back and I never yearn
for the light in which I was born
the knife has become my blood
just like the light that has become my enemy
in the light is truth
in which you hide from
behind all the black and white
is truth
but truth is deceptive
it lies too
keeping us captive
in this game for two
when will it end
but did it even start
what message has it sent
to our feeble hearts
maybe its time
that we end this game
move on
and change our names
cause we like the death that it brings
and out comes the blood
without it...
I have already changed
in the depths of my mind
the path I once sought
is no longer in thought
though still craving pain
yet suppressed with anger
I’ve moved on
and Tessa showed me the way
we walk side by side
forever in the depths of time
I’ve moved on
anger is gone
no longer in sight
I feel so free
I feel so light
no more in darkness
no more nightmares
pain is gone, suppressed by stress
nothing more than scores
all along I was wrong
the pain is finally gone...
tears fall...
down and down...
who’s calling me
holding me from drowning
I don’t understand why you hold on
to a life that’s meaningless...
to the way you make it seem...
to a few others and me
I know Tessa holds you back
but do you tell her the honest truth
like some things you tell me
is it worth the lie in the end
