As I Choke On Goodbyes

I stick by everything i said earlier.

You'll probably never....FEEL what i felt in that moment that Car told me you had tried to commit suicide, and i hope you never DO feel that. BUt it was the coldest, cruelest feeling on this planet. And nothing's been colder.

I mean...think of Hailie...now what if you had LOVED Hailie...enough to die for her when you found out she tried to commit suicide?

I know you'd nearly pass out from stress, from pain and anxiety. Be strong, babe. I love you!

Great poem... really sad, but really good! 5/5

I LOVE YOU TOOO Much for you to ever leave. Don't leave me alone in this world, please. I can't stand the coldness. I need your warmth, and even if I can't have it physically, I think of you and its better than nothing at all. I love you!!!

I wrote like 20 poems for you last night,...but I didn't have time to type them out or post them on here, so just know that I really love you lots and worry about you tons!!! So please think of me before you do something stupid.....lol! I didn't mean to sound rude or imposing or anything.....its just suicide is pretty stupid...i honestly think you could be soo much happier if you left this site...yes, you'd be leaving behind some friends, but my depression has almost disappeared....maybe if you took a break from all of the tension on here, maybe you'll feel better...only a suggestion.....you don't ever have to. I regret everyday leaving, but my mental health has improved...I LOVE YOU LOTS!

~Sierra

OMG!!! ZAC!! *TEAR*!!!!!! I Heard what you did!! I'm soooooo sorry I wasn't there for you! But you can't do this to me! I can't help being gone....and imagine my surprise when Im' happy and I come back to realize my best friend here tried to commit!?!?! It nearly gave me a heartattack...I'm at school as I type this....and I almost cried my eyes out.....but I can't, because I have to be strong just like you do!! Babe, please be strong...I told you before, you're too good to die. The messages I left you on your phone, they were stupid, I know, but please, just thnk of me. It would kill me to know you're gone!! This poem, I couldnt' read, because if i did, I just just know I would start bawling....I read the last bit though and I am shaking. Babe!! Omg......I'm soo sorry!!!! End of school is tomorrow, so I don't know how else I'll be able to get to you....just know that I love you lots and I'll always find a way to get to you, I swear!

All my love,

~Sierra