Smoking,
Sniffing,
Injecting,
Go ahead, feel free,
It's your life,
Your choice,
Your future,
Go ahead, its not up to me,
But one thing I won't accept,
I won't accept the guilt,
I can feel it deep inside,
But I will not yield,
It was not me who made your decision,
Not I who ordered you to stop,
YOU chose to give it up,
to quit,
and it's up to you if you want to jump,
Now you have a choice to make,
One you should make wisely,
To have something you "want"
or something you crave?
No-one can decide but you,
I won't budge,
Not an inch,
I'm stuck in my ways and true to myself,
I know what I want and what I don't,
Please don't leave me to wonder,
Don't mess with me or my world,
Don't spring back and forth like a rubber band,
Or one day I might not be here when you return,
If you need support I'll stand by you,
But I won't encourage you through this,
I can't,
I won't,
I wish I could,
But no way no how,
I'm going through too much just with this,
Waiting to see what will happen,
Scared half to death,
Panic has stricken my breathing,
What will happen next?
*i wasn't sure which this went under... its about the man I love but also about life...*
