My Huge Sin!

Somehow my mom figured it out
She made the appointment
The test will be positive I have no doubt
Im so scared of hearing those words uttered out
You’re pregnant for the 6th time!
Why does your child have to be mine?
Jonathan there’s no hiding it this time
I don’t think I could go through this again
5 times that’s such a huge sin
The physical and emotional pain
Was way too much for me to bare
And this time you wont even be there!
You broke my heart, and you’re with someone new
But my mind and are heart are full of thoughts of me and you
So what’s your pregnant ex to do
You say you don’t want it and tell me to think straight
But when you don’t give me a chance to speak my world gets so irate
Another child will be so tough but so will the thought of taking its life
This would be so much easier if you still imagined me someday being your wife
I would be able to keep this precious gift that was given to me again
Instead of going back to the church and confessing my huge sin!

I didnt know where to put this but please comment and vote!