I don`t want to be me-

She’s sitting at the top of her stairs again
her head in her hands as she cries
she’s so sick of feeling worthless
and so sick of living this worthless life.

She tells her self things will be alright
And things will someday be okay
But why is she fooling herself so much
And why is she putting herself threw this pain.

She’s behind that glass window again
Trapped inside her own soul
She can no longer go out in the daylight
Because death is starting to take it`s toll.

She hurts herself to know she’s still living
because deep down she knows she’s dead
She just sits and stars at her arms
as they turn a deep crimson red.

She asks god why she does this to herself
because that isn’t how she wants to be
she Can`t take this pain any-longer
she screams at the sky “ I DON`T WANT TO BE ME”