Numb

I'm numb to it all
It's like a bad dream
I'm not really here
And you're still there
My eyes have not cried for you
I have not seen the worst
You won't be there when I wake up
My heart now filled with pain
You won't be there when I grow up
You won't see me again
All the pain that rushes over me.
Who wouldn't want to be numb?
You wouldn't want me miserable
You don't want to put me through pain
I know better than to be sad
You wouldn't want it that way
But being numb
Is the only other thing I can do