Regrets

I see this life,
this empty space,
painful memories,
all over the place.
Carved into my are,
and all around,
I must say,
I delight in self harm.
I took a step,
and sunk to the ground,
muddy with blood,
that dripped from my arm.
The blood never left,
It had been there for hours,
weeks and months.
It was there like my body,
and my aching heart.
All this blood,
had tore me apart.
How could I do this?
with you in mind?
You saved me so much,
each and every time.
So why did I do it?
and take my life?
leaving you behind,
to face this life?
I could have handled,
a lot of the strife,
It wasn't that bad,
That I should have taken my life.

(optional part, I need a better ending)
The years went by,
and seasons passed.
You went though high school,
and had a blast.
But I wasn't there,
to enjoy it with you,
I ended it before my time,
I ended it to soon.
Please forgive me,
My pain has all past.
I'm no longer in,
a permanent cast.
I'm free to move,
but without you,
I wish that I told,
to not take this road,
so now I warn you,
this happens to few,
don't follow in my footsteps,
please don't be next.