Crimson Tears

Once again I take my razor,
And commit my bloody sin,
Completing crimson lines,
Against my flawless skin.

Tears seep from my eyes,
And fall down into my soul,
But I continue causing pain,
Until I eventually feel whole.

I lay on the floor bleeding,
Cradling my crimson arm,
Even though I've done this before,
I'm stunned at my act of harm.

Pain rocks through my body,
As I wash the blood away,
I feel no better than I did before,
I'm still all cold and grey.

I look deep into the mirror,
And stare right into my eyes,
I can see beyond myself,
Past my make-up disguise,

I can see the hurt and the pain,
And the frightening fears,
I can see my blood stained arm,
My own crimson tears.

I can see the pale reflection,
And the blackened eyes,
They all think I'm fine right now,
But they can't see past the lies.

And so I lay me down to sleep,
And wish the pain away,
I close my eyes and fall asleep,
Whilst dreaming of a better day...

But that day never arrives,
I'm always alone and filled with hate,
This is my destiny right here,
My life, my soul, my fate.

:'''( Sigh. Any title suggestions? I don't like the title it's got.