My Enemy

As I sit and Watch.
I see windows of blue and gray,
I also see purple and black.

I then see a stranger,
She is my enemy of happiness and love,
She was there one minute then gone.

She was my enemy,
She came to me when I lost my one true love,
Then poof she was gone.

She saw me take the drugs,
As a weeping girl says goodbye,
I may never see her again.

But why cry that little slice and dice I do every night,
That was my true love,My enemy tried to stop me but I pulled away.

Jeremy was gone and now I would be too,
I would be with him now forever. He was my love till that fateful night,
And always will be now.

My enemy tried pulling me back,
But I would’t and couldn't and
let her no.

All my happiness was gone
All my love and warmth.
But my enemy wasn't NO!

She tried so hard to make me happy
And whole again. She wanted me to
Love and laugh, I wouldnwouldugh no.
Maybe someone would find me,
In my darkness but not know no.
She cried as I slipped away
That’s when I realized who my enemy was.

My enemy was myself,

The two years of popping pills and slicing and dicing,
That was my true enemy.
It didn’t heldidt I thought it did.

Why didn’t anyondidtice or care?
All my life was gone
Because of my love Jeremy.

My enemy was me really. She was happy but
I wasn’t I was mwasn enemy.