I have tried to die
But I’m still here today
I don’t like being me
And I don’t like living this way
I’m holding the blade
Clutched tight in my hand
I’m trying to work it out in my head
I’m just trying to understand
You have left me alone
And now I’m broken here
I didn’t want it to be like this
So out falls another tear
I know you know that I hate myself
But now I hate me more
I’m so sorry I can’t change the past
To how it was before
I can’t take back what I’ve done
I can’t take back what I put you through
But I thought we could stand it
Forever me and you
I can’t take back what I’ve said
And I’m sorry for what I did not
Because you out of all people should know
What’s done can’t be forgot
I just don’t understand
Why it is you hate me so
You tell me to move on
But I can’t just let you go
I keep replaying it
Over and over in my head
Just what it was
That you may have said
The letter held tight
In my other hand
I read it over and over
And I just don’t understand
Are you waiting for me to fail
Or do you just not like to see me in bliss
Well let me tell you something
Being happy is something I miss
So I take the blade to my wrist
I’ll do it just one more time
But I’m only doing this
To get you off my mind.
