You will never know me
don't even try to find
the reason that I hide myself
deep inside my mind.
I'm not self-sufficient
and I'm so insecure.
every time I open up
my heart's thrown on the floor.
People persecute and judge me.
they don't even wonder why
I wear long black sleeves to hid my arms
and dark make-up on my eyes.
My arms and legs are cut so bad,
that's why the sleeves are there.
They hide the painful wounds each day
just like a long dark veil.
The makeup on my eyes I wear
to hide the dark circles underneath.
It blends in with the eye-liner,
so you don't know I do not sleep.
At night my minds in disarray,
my thoughts do not come clear.
My anger that has caused this pain
then just starts to swell.
It's at this time I love my blades.
Their kiss on my skin's so sweet.
One time I just lost so much blood,
I couldn't get to my feet.
When I finally woke up It felt so great
Just to know I tempted fate.
Death wants me I don't give in.
He tries to bribe me but I don't bend.
My suicidal tendencies are my own to keep.
I do it for the sheer pleasure.
But now i think I'm in to deep.
