Bathing in fears

Duck my mixed up mind under water
i drown out the rest of the world
the racing heart beat rings through my ears
ears of this pathetic confused girl

their voices seem to drift from me
along this steadily flowing tide
but the memories continue swimming
in the countless tears Ive cried

trying to wash away the fears
to clear them from my mind
then i realize i end up surrounded
bathing in thoughts i cant leave behind

more tears start to silently fall
as i submerge deeper again
lost all control so long ago
in this bath water of my pain

the light struggles to reflect
from the cloudy darkening surface
muddles images of a distant face
reveal each flaw in this growing mess

the water becomes so bitterly cold
outside the street lamps begin to glow
dim yellow patches show on the pane
stopping this mess from ridding all woe

these eyes start to ache and to sting
from the rivers parting each socket
like two windows battered by rain
with no possible power to stop it

close the blinds tightly shut on them
ban more sunlight from passing through
drown the world out all over again
running from pain is the best thing i do