Distance

He is there
i am here
he likes the distance, but i hate it
i love him and hate him a bit
but he wished he never met and kissed me
that's the way his life should be
the first boy i kissed
and the person i missed
when i got back home
i felt so alone
but then he told me
we are not meant to be
so just friends
and no kiss, just shake hands
now he doesn't want any contact with me
is this really the way my life should be?