Suicide Note*

Dear Everyone,

I suppose you know I'm gone
How will I explain this?
I just wanted you to know
I was too stupid for one last kiss

It wasn't really your fault
So never ever think that
I was always taunted and teased
I'm too stupid, or ugly or fat.

Tell all my friends I'll miss them
Jesika- You helped me through
I know you loved me more than I could explain
I'm in your heart, and I love you too!

Robyn- I didn't know you too well
But you always knew what I meant
But I can only take this cruelty
To a certain day, a certain extent

You were the only friends on this site
That truly ever knew
The pain I suffered everyday
The crap that I went through

I never meant to complain
Because others deal with worse stuff
But I would just break down and cry
When I was trying to be tough

So if I went on and on
About the "horrible" life I had
I'm so so so so sorry
It wasn't really that bad

I'm just not very strong
I couldn't take it in
I thought my life was over
When it was just starting to begin.

Tell Maurissa and Brittney I'm sorry
That I was bad and I lied
I really wanted them to like me
I really really tried

Tell Sara that she understands
She's already been through it
But unlike me; she was strong
I couldn't seem to quit

Tell my Mom I love her unconditionally
I NEVER meant to cause her any pain
I know you're strong; you'll get through this
If only I just wouldn't have hit that vein

Tell Aaron I really did like him
But he was better off as just a friend
I know when it comes down to it all
He'll be with me until the end

Zachary Donovan Solt
I really did love you
I didn't think you should know
I was afraid you wouldn't love me too

So if you feel sad, or hurt, or confused
Remember- You're better off without me

I'll be watching over you all from Heaven
I'll want to fix your problems, but I'll just let you be.

This is Not a true poem. If I wrote a Suicide Note it would be much longer.