The feelings so vivid, it's like I'm still there
Lying with you, my hands in your hair
The memories taunt me, they won't go away
Like a beautiful horror story in constant play
I want to forget you, pretend you never existed
But when it all started you were something I never could've resisted
You were the most charming addiction to ever rule my brain
Now you're the only one to have ever caused me so much pain
You were what I always wanted but still my worst fear
You left me crying all night yet I held you so dear
You've ruined me you know, for anyone else who tries to get in
I've shut off my heart, I'll never get close to anyone again
I know he's noticed the distance between us, I just can't seem to unlock this door
It may seem unfair to blame you still but before you emotions weren't such a chore
It's such an effort now to convince myself to trust him
And I know I want to but outlook remains grim
What a surprise, you turned a fantasy into a nightmare
Now standing in the face of bliss there's just a blank stare
I used to have a sensitive heart but now there's nothing there
So even if I wanted to, there's no room left to care
