Finger Prints of Creation [My Lifes Love Pain]

Whether or not my existence,
was pre-ordained or set in stone,
i hear the repetitive rants,
of wishing i hadn't been grown.

My heart aches with sorrow,
the finger prints of pain,
the lot of hidden morrow,
a darkness you've lain.

You're God,
the maker of all things.
the one i despise so much,
i cannot stop these rings.

Ringing in my head,
the resonance of stain,
darkly open torment,
my head held low pain.

Hate of this plain called creation,
this sadistic lot of pain,
it running deep inside of me,
now pouring out like rain.

Why did you make me?
You sadistic God Brute.
The unfolding Love story,
is nothing more than false hope.

Empty dreams linger on,
while i face an empty dawn.
lost without hope,
my heart is all for gone.

I hate you. I hate you.
I'll say it again and again.
no choice to choose the savior,
going downward to the end.

Its crazy sad in-ending,
my heart so heavy pending.
the only hope that solitude,
will cover my ending.

You're fingerprints of creation,
they've stained my drooping heart,
leaving me to dead station,
I'm broken all, but apart.

Your Finger Prints about me,
this life no longer used,
its something like to be,
completely self abused.

The Love story told to me,
the one you wrote for them.
its not meant for me,
but everything else & for him.

I hate your lies in scripture.
Choosing me from the start.
You liar b*stard compromiser,
you new they'd break my heart.

Your scripture said,
I'm wonderfully & fearfully made.
you compromiser head,
you know I'm too darkly stained.

Wash away my sins,
cover them in Jesus,
you liar you sadistic freak,
you know i can't do this.

So why did you make me?
I hate you o so much.
I want to die right now,
I want you no such.

You should suffer for making man.
Send yourself to hell.
You B*stard liar creator,
I'm nothing but a yell.

A heartbeat murmur nothing,
that is all I am to tell.

A broken promise hopeful,
another fearful made.

Another disgusting Stain.
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* I am so sorry