Identified finally at last
A hidden burden from my past
Shaping my life around that moment
Even when that weight was dormant
Destruction of my trust that faithful day
Taking all that I knew away
My love abandoning me
Throwing dirt in my eyes for all to see
How I hate her now when I loved her then
Forever destroying the feelings within
My trust shattered; My love lost
Everyday since I have remembered that cost
Reminding me every time I trust
Protect myself at all cost I must
Hateful thoughts to the people I care
Wondering if I need them would they be there
Pounding them till the can't take anymore
Slowly pushing them out the door
To achieve what I most fear
To hurt those I hold most dear
I have know this for a while
Never imagined it controlled every mile
Every mile of my heart; Every mile of my soul
This realization has clarified my goal
To heal my old wounds; Piece back together my heart
Recovering the ability to trust is where I must start
It has taken, since that tragic day, to be
Able to identify just what I flee
Now I am on my final phase
I have nearly reached the end of my long maze
Complete trust and love; My prize at the end
Hopefully I will find that just around this bend...
