What more can I say?
What can I say that hasn't already been said?
What can I do?
What should I do?
In the silent of the night,
Questions constantly race through my head.
Questions with no answers.
They plague me,
Night and day.
Always the questions,
Never the answers.
What I would give to know the answers.
I am not afraid of asking the question,
But I am afraid of the answer.
If it truly is hopeless......
Why do I continue to fight?
I will not win,
I can not win,
But still I fight.
I have made my choice......
Where every normal man would admit defeat,
Where every normal man would move on,
I continue.
Why?
Why do I continue?
Logically,
It is hopeless.
I have lost my patience,
A patience that once before stood the test of time.
Now it dwindles......
Now it fades.
I am growing impatient.
I can not wait......
Why do you make me wait?
The answer is so close,
Yet so far away.
As much as I would like to know it......
I would be afraid of the outcome.
For once,
Just once......
I wish that the answer isn't what I expect it to be.
I wish that once more life will surprise me.
Maybe it's best if I didn't know......
Maybe I'll be happier if I didn't.
After all......
Ignorance is bliss.
This poem......
It has no direction,
No structure,
But these are my thoughts,
These are my questions.
The battle that once raged within me is over......
The victor has been decided,
But he can not move forward,
He has to wait.
I give in to love,
I give in to passion,
I give in to obsession,
I give in to possession,
I give in to what my heart desires.
I am not a normal man......
I can not move on.
I do not admit defeat,
For I haven't been defeated.
Why would I give up?
The battle is not over.
The battle within me is,
But not the one I continue to fight.
I have waited all my life,
Surely I can wait more.
Love is patient,
And is not blind.
I must be patient......
Once again.
I admit......
The situation is grim,
There isn't any hope,
I shouldn't even bother to continue.
... But I still do.
I am not a normal man.
I will not accept anything besides the best.
I do not want an infatuation,
I do not want a crush,
I do not want a flirt,
I do not want a flame,
A fleeting passion.
I want love......
I want you.
There is a reason why my heart and soul are poured into these poems,
There is a reason I continue to fight......
Because I believe in hope when there is none.
I believe in victory against incredible odds.
I believe that dreams do come true.
I believe in me,
I believe in you,
And I believe in what we could be.
... But the choice is not up to me.
The decision is not mine to make.
I have made up my mind.
I wish......
I give......
I want......
I believe......
I continue......
I fight......
I wait.
Now......
What do you think?
