Don't hate my past

by SammiBABY   May 22, 2005


I’m not dumb, strange and mysterious,
I’m just not poised, dignified or serious.
Life is a game and I am finally winning,
Drunk on success, my head happily spinning.
I’m always honest now, I never will judge,
All mistakes are forgiven, I can’t hold a grudge.
Don’t think I’m dumb, stubborn or lazy,
I’m the opposite; intelligent but crazy.
Call me a “loser” but I know I’m not that,
I’m smiling, I’m winning, It’s all just a fact.

See I’m not that “stalker” who gets manipulated,
Because I don’t follow orders, that gets me frustrated.
I don’t play dumb games, don’t make crank calls,
I don’t contemplate suicide, they’re my past’s pitfalls.
I don’t talk mindless lies, especially when there’s proof,
So don’t ask me if I’m lying, because I prefer the truth
I love the friends I have made, my unconnected family,
I’ve truly found who I am, I finally know who’s me.
I don’t like the way I was portrayed last year,
Arrogant, impolite, never covering a tear.

Now I’m that girl with the smile here at last
Walking through a damaged life, singed by her past.
Basking in each day, still smiling every night,
Memories fade in and out, but I know I’ll be all right.
I made that mistake of falling, straight into his power
Overlooked by my patience that used to highly tower.
My soul is forever wounded, by a thing called history,
Where I played the evil one, in a game of no victory.
That day that I lost my voice, and the day I lost all trust,
Was the day my spirit died and left my body to rust.

So when you say ‘stalker’ you are making a mistake,
Because that clearly isn’t me, that all was only fake.
And I know I have been doomed, by this harsh history,
So please don’t hate me for my past…I swear that wasn’t me.

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  • 19 years ago

    by Heather M Craig

    lol, Stace, sometimes people are given false criticism...I believe sammie was taking up for herself with a poem in which I've did the same. But that wasn't mean of you to express yourself, just make sure you know what you are talking about first. Great job Sammi, keep it up

    With Love & Respect.
    Heather M Craig

  • 19 years ago

    by Victoria

    Good poem it shows that self will can help us move on.

    take care